The Testimony of Matt Scott. (In a nutshell)

The Testimony of Matt Scott (in a nutshell)

For I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus. (Philippians 1:6 NASB)

Born in Wichita Kansas November 20th 1978. (KS 78-85) Age: Birth to 6
.Received Jesus as Lord and savior at an age way too young to really know what I had and why I needed to be saved.
.Sexually molested by 16 yr old female babysitter at age 3. (The door and catalyst to my former sexual addiction)
.Father allows me to cry and scream my way out of a spanking. Don’t ever remember getting another one after this. (The start of no discipline and rebellion).(My folks were amazing and showed us love and gave us Jesus but under disciplined us because they were raised with parents that were over-disciplinarians). This made for a lot of hard lessons later as you’ll see and a skewed view of God the Father for a while. Made it hard to commit to or finish anything later. I love and forgive them though I do not understand.
.Remembered many things at a freakishly young age. Also walked all over a multiple block neighborhood with friend Joey. Not sure why this was able to happen or where my or his folks were.
.Had an insatiable desire to know how things worked and how things felt. (Including the bee’s I’d hold to let sting me on purpose to see how it felt. Odd Kid)
.1985 my sister Sarah is born. Father accepts job with Bell Helicopter in DFW

Moved to Texas 1985
.”Christian school” 1st grade. Violently whipped every day for no reason (literally) to the point of bruising by the principle. Was told beforehand that God was very disappointed with me. (Lucky I ever wanted anything to do with Christianity after this). Ran home when I snapped and dropped my pants to show parents bruising. (The enemy tried to take me out right off the bat for my call with a bitter first experience with Christianity) (Awareness of things in the world needing to be different began)
.Raised in church.

Public School
.Enrolled in public school the remainder of 1st grade after horrific Christian school experience.

1st- 5th grade.
The only school years of some peace. Some fights, girlfriends and first experience with smoking. (A generational addiction stirs but doesn’t take yet).
.6th grade by itself. Started really noticing girls smoked more and struggling to focus. Summer school to pass.
.Skater through Jr. High.
.Brought many friends to church. (Evangelism)
.Prophesied over that I had a large work to do for the kingdom, a calling to do great things and be a leader to many. (Multiple times this was spoken from different people in the churches).
.Was exposed to pornography at grandfathers in Austin. (Lust began to take hold)
.Exposed to books on occult and the metaphysical at friend Radd’s house. (Gateway to curiosity with the metaphysical and the occult).
.Love of heavy metal and secular music began
.Went through first major depression at age 10-12 for 2 yrs. Nearly committed suicide to end the sadness and confusion.


Jr. High 7th, 7th-8th grade.
.Fully addicted to cigarettes, lost virginity at 14 and started experimenting with drugs. (The beginning of drug and sexual addictions) Slept with many before leaving Jr. High alone. Skipped so much school I failed 7th. Didn’t care about school anymore. Only girls and drugs. Flunked through all of Jr. High till forced to go to High School. Was never disciplined or made to fix the issue. Was allowed to fail. Continued a cycle of failure. Tried home school but came back. Was smart and very intelligent but didn’t care nor was made to. Very rebellious and depressed. Started having to fight and was shown how to make homemade tattoo’s. Had tattoo’s before leaving. (Later got full sleeves to cover the old mess)
.Always intrigued by spiritual things and had a taste for  Biblical prophecy and end times events.
.Loved reading books and fantasy novels/games. (Led to studying some witchcraft/ eastern religions and astral projection).
.My aunt sends me up north, 2 summers consecutively. I'm surrounded by beauty while being sent out on a 14 day canoeing trip to the British Columbia in Canada, (we barely survived and lived off the land literally after 4 days in due to losing all we had in violent rapids), Two 14 day Mountain Climbing trips to Sinks Canyon Wyoming, And a 14 day Backpacking trip to the Bob Marshall wilderness/mountains of Montana. We nearly died multiple times, swamped our canoes and were swept away in violent and treacherous rapids, were followed and attacked by a Grizzly bear, lost our way, had a near death mountainside from falling boulders and so on. This deepened the already rooted survival traits/skills I had and was a true man making season of my life. These were defining moments in my life to which a day does not go by that I do not think about. Some of the best times of my life and a catalyst for spiritual and mental survival in the days ahead. This was the only time I knew peace until my 30's.
Never had a problem with faith or believing in Jesus.
.Always brought friends to church and spoke of God even in this state. (Evangelism)
.Gave life back to Christ but couldn't kick the habits and was pulled back into the world.

High School 9-10.
.Didn’t return to church for some time.
.Full drug use, Meth, Coke, Acid, Pot, X and so on. More sex and parties.
.OD’d on Acid and was revived by Jesus. (In the blackness of life fading, His hand came down through a pinhole of light to literally pull me out of the darkness and back to life).
.Involved in many bad situations with bad people where my life could have ended any second.
.Best friend committed suicide when I was 16. I was a pallbearer.
.Fought after funeral at school a lot after his death due to many reasons.
.Went deeper into depression. (Depression was a constant battle for me)
. Many friends died of drugs and suicide. Flunked through 9th and 10th because I still didn’t care nor was made to. Skipped too much class to pass or get license to drive till later at 18 but drove anyway.
.I had a deep hatred for Jr. High and High School due to the mentality of the kids. I was always on a different level and thought differently. I was usually better friends with my friends parents.
.Communication skills and intelligence I always had but I didn’t apply discipline and sound logic. The Holy Spirit kept my mind and spirit growing despite my stupid choices.
.Dropped out of High School and got GED

Art School. Phoenix, AZ. Early to mid 90’s
.Moved to AZ at age 17 to go to art college to get away from the drugs and the life I was living to start over and find new life. (Wasn’t listening to God or hearing what He wanted me to do).
.Literally the day I was shown my apartment and met my roommate the drugs flowed again. Meth, Coke, Opium, Peyote, Mescalin, Pot, X and alcohol. Bigger, better and more. (My plan for a new life went out the window almost instantly).
.Held a 4.0 GPA despite my addictions and habits. (When school cost money I cared and I took college seriously)
.God held my intelligence intact and kept my mind stimulated through my love of books and reading despite my own idiocy. He never left my side.
.I continued to speak of God and tell people of Him even when I wasn’t living right. I was deeply convicted of my beliefs but was not able to be obedient or operate in self control due to my lack of discipline growing up.
.Met and hooked up with a woman twice my age. (Professional DJ in the emerging Rave scene). Went deeper into drugs and the hallucinogenic lifestyle. She was connected to 2 British international fugitives through drugs, unknowingly. Also still married, unbenownst to me, and connected to the mafia. (Which also connected to all this).
.I had enough and moved back to TX when I was no longer connected.
.She tells me she has lupus and asks me for a kidney, sick as death while visiting me in TX on purpose. (I said no) I realized I had been used then. I drive her back to AZ.
.She enters witness protection program, is moved over seas.

20 years old living in my grandmothers house after she passes.
.Grandmother dies on my 20th birthday. I moved in to her home shortly after.
.Had some friends move in, had big parties known about citywide.
.Continued sleeping around, marijuana use and started weight lifting and using steroids.
.Had given up all hard drugs after near death experiences. Kept smoking pot and drinking.
.I had “drug morals” and said the lesser ones were OK but none of the “big” ones could be at the house.
.Met a girl the equivalent of Jezebel, fell in lust, moved her in and later her father who was dying of AIDS from Heroin use to help him for a few months till he could get a place while everyone else still lived there. Found her cheating and using heroin and was seconds away from literally killing her and the man. Rage from all of life and the steroids amplifying the anger drove that decision. (Another ploy of the enemy to take me out permanently). God made sure neither of them were at his house. They left 5 minutes before I got there i found out later.
.Left Jezebel, kicked everyone out and got an apartment alone.

Done with the life I was living. Joined the Navy, then met the wife.
.Quit smoking pot altogether.Tried to quit cigarettes, did briefly a few times but couldn't kick em. The Lord delivered me instantly after looking at the people I knew that were older, still on it and nowhere in life. I said, Lord, I don’t want to end up like this, please deliver me. He was faithful when I was serious. (I normally struggled horribly to quit anything). (A friends mother had told me I had an addiction addiction).
.Fed up with life not working, I joined the Navy and entered the delayed entry program to get some more college credits so I could go in as an officer. Trained for a year in DEP. (Wanted to go for the S.E.A.L.’s). Had an earlier injury that was discovered via an old x-ray that kept me from the positions I wanted and was already qualified for. Was given the option to honorably discharge and took it. I believe the Lord was keeping me from an early death and not heeding my calling. I would have fully immersed into the somewhat psychotic role of a special forces operative and probably never gotten back on track with the Lord. All of my bitterness and pain would have the wrong outlet, turning me into a war monster.
.Met the wife just before I opted out of the Navy.
.Took to smoking pot again briefly.

Marriage a successful business, Serious salvation, anxiety/panic disorder, the loss of a child and divorce.
.Married when I was 23.(Wasn’t listening to God again). We were living together in sin a year before we tied the knot. Much good did come out of this though, with multiple people being led to Christ. Wasn’t living right yet but still had a heart to see people saved. Led her atheist grandfather to Christ just hours before he died and a customer of mine weeks before he died. There were others as well but without death being involved.
.The Passion of the Christ came out. I went in one way and came out re dedicated to Christ and on fire from there on out. This is when I really accepted Jesus and got serious. At this point all I wanted was Him and the things of Him.
.We started going to church regularly as did her dad and step mom.
.We started a very successful landscaping business, made great money and bought plenty of expensive things we didn’t need. Went into unnecessary debt.
.She shows the depth of her formerly hidden bulimia/eating disorder. I’ve never seen any addiction/disorder to this extent that had someone still living. She enters treatment. Comes out and goes back to the disorder. This disorder effected everything she/we did or didn’t do. She wouldn’t receive help or get serious about overcoming to save herself or the marriage. Doc’s tell us she can never have children from the damage thew disorder has caused her inside.
.I go into full blown depression and develop anxiety/panic disorder. Start drinking and smoking pot again. Double the amount of cigarettes I smoked.
.I’m emotionally and verbally abused to the point of believing it. (Not the real wife but her addiction speaking. This was not the woman I married)
.I get put on high doses of anti-depressants/anti-anxiety medication. Told I’ll have to take them the rest of my life.
.I sell the business because I cannot handle it with all else going on. Could no longer function properly to take care of my customers. Worked different jobs.
.Towards the end of our relationship we start attending Lake House Church.
.I start getting serious about ministry but meet resistance from her. She didn’t want that kind of life.
.Miraculously, she gets pregnant, I get happy as she slowly goes to sad.
.Due to her disorder she equates pregnant to overweight and aborts the child against my will. I’m devastated, she worsens and no longer sleeps right with bad nightmares.
.Our relationship becomes completely toxic and I don’t see her the same anymore.
.We separate, I move home with my folks and we make preparations for divorce.
.We divorce after being together for 7 years when I’m 28. We married July 3rd and were divorced on July 2.
.The pain and depression from all this renders me almost completely useless as a human being.
.This messes me up even deeper because I loved her, wanted her well, believed in marriage and vows and was morally conflicted with divorce and leaving her like she was but the marriage was killing us both. I still had a lot to learn about being a husband as well. Was able to forgive her later after God doing a work in me, and she was able to forgive my shortcomings. We are still friends now and are civil.

Back home with the folks, figuring out what the heck to do with my life now.
.I’m home, beat down, no self confidence and feeling like a complete failure and like I’ve come through two world wars. (Another tactic of the enemy).
.Just before the divorce I’d bought a motorcycle and after traded it for a cruiser. This became my only escape.
.The first thing I did when I was divorced and started to hope again was backslide. Started smoking pot again, drinking and sleeping around. (The second clarity started coming, the enemy was there to throw me right off course again with the old nature and a sense of freedom after bondage, only to throw me back into the old bondage.)
.I start writing. (A significant catalyst to later change)
.Stopped living crazy, meet a spirit filled woman and almost got close to marriage even though I wasn’t in love or properly attracted to her. (First spirit filled, serious woman of God I met after the divorce. Good woman but wrong for me). (The enemy used a good thing to try and trip me up. God had something so much better for me in mind).
.Enemy got me thinking wrong even towards my church and I leave. Stay out of church for a bit.
.Get fed up once and for all and submit all to God.

True deliverance and life begin. (All good finally)
.Led to another church for a season. Develop a close relationship with the Pastor and am mentored by him. God worked all things to my good. Even leaving my home church for a season.
.All desire for the things of old are gone.
.I’m called to a season of solitude and study in the word as it and writing helps heal me and ministers to others. (A season of abiding on the secret mountain of the almighty). I stay in this season about one year. I come out of this season a new man completely. (My burning bush experience if you will. I encountered and experienced God).
.A writing ministry is born. I write two books and blog regularly.
.The Lord delivers me from depression and gives me peace I’ve not known.
.The Lord delivers me from anti-depressants/anti-anxiety medication. (The doctors told me I’d never produce the right amount of chemicals naturally again that are needed for proper emotional and mental health due to such a severe case of post traumatic stress disorder and would have to take meds the rest of my life).
.The Lord delivers me cold-turkey from cigarettes and all desires to smoke after 16 years of addiction. (Failed epically, hundreds of times in my own power using patches, gum and other quit smoking aids).
.The Lord brings to remembrance and revitalizes my call to the ministry.
.The enemy no longer steals the good seed.
.I start Bible college at Christ for the Nations. 
.Without being able to work like I need and after losing my truck, the Lord supernaturally provides for me to pay for my first semester of school. (Much thanks to my folks).
.The Lord then blesses me with a full scholarship that covers all school/living/food expense
.The Lord brings to remembrance old dreams and visions of a healing ministry and now has me operating in that gift.
(.Full update coming soon. Mind boggling addition of good things to add soon. Entered 4/11/14)


Scriptures I stood on throughout. (NKJV) unless noted otherwise.

.For I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus. (Philippians 1:6 NASB)

.For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope. (Jeremiah 29:11)

.Trust in the LORD with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths. (Proverbs 3:5-6)

.But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you. (Matthew 6:33)

.Therefore we do not lose heart. Even though our outward man is perishing, yet the inward man is being renewed day by day. For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, is working for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory, while we do not look at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen. For the things which are seen are temporary, but the things which are not seen are eternal. (2 Corinthians 4:16-18)

.Roll your works upon the Lord [commit and trust them wholly to Him; He will cause your thoughts to become agreeable to His will, and] so shall your plans be established and succeed. (Proverbs 16:3 AMP)

.And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God. (Romans 12:2)

.And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 10 Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ’s sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong. (2 Corinthians 12:9-10)

.Keep and guard your heart with all vigilance and above all that you guard, for out of it flow the springs of life. (Proverbs 4:23 AMP)

.I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit within you; I will take the heart of stone out of your flesh and give you a heart of flesh. I will put My Spirit within you and cause you to walk in My statutes, and you will keep My judgments and do them. (Ezekiel 36:26-27)

.For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places. (Ephesians 6:12)