Living, breathing invigoration pulsing new life into dried veins. Exploding it comes to a dry and weary landscape of spirit and flesh, overstimulated, under-spilled and analyzed to paralysis. Pondered threads of existence, layer upon layer, doctrine upon doctrine, views and beliefs poured over to the point of catharsis, producing a jaded, thinned and deconstructed substance of all things once thought, fluid state and flowing through valleys and intersections of where mind and belief cross.
A passage of time untouched by the aging, five years material yet a lifetime ethereal. Agony through bellows of gut wrenching pain of failure and fog, soul in imprisoned, cold stone in my chest once warm, life flowed from my best. Crippled, bruised, betrayed by self and def to the Sparrow, emotional motion into decay, ravaged by flesh and feeling, blind to the Day. Further towards depravity my being falls, the shock of the halt from years of war, the battle raged rages no more, thrashing within, no closure, no light, darkness.......consumed and swallowed, living death, I give it to You freely, take this wretch, I bare this no more.
Pull me from the grave of self or kill me I pray, suffer this life not one more day will I, lest for purpose. Destiny....providence...Your will alone will save, mine gone, I am depraved. Stripped of all I once knew, I am left only with bones and with You.
You’ve echoed through the ages, through dreams, visions and sages. Faithfully drawing, creation speaking, moments of epiphany in shrouded wood, breezes blowing yet miles in sight. The path ahead lies. Retraction is not an option. Death or destiny without compromise. Cessation of self- mortification, the lame walks and the dead rises. A seeking of council, re-focus, re-construct, I find in You that I am rebuilt, restored and renewed.
Plan A in Plan B’s space, new season of life I face. The call. Heavy, driven, absent and emptied, no residual me. Untainted and unpainted canvas to graze. Unfamiliar territory, the mirror reflects unfamiliar. An age passes.
Words spoken from youth returning, terminal velocity carrying vision, doors opened and doors closed, narrow and firm the path unfolds. The love of God the likes never known, blessing poured abundant over fresh fire, all once thought lost not buried in mire but beauty for ashes, authority, boldness, a transfer of power.
That which has no origin, God, transcendent of matter and volume, That from which flows order, above all that comes under, whispers transference, crackling life, corrosion falling, no longer dark night. Chaos removed through love so pure, no works can earn, no words compel, a love unconditional, saving from hell.
The air is clear, free, this soul You’ve set free my Father, my all to Thee. To You I belong, in You I’m found. Groveling, blindness and grasping in darkness, begging Lord how? Your magnificent hand extended, voice thundering in solitaire, seas of shadows split and laid bare, Your light demands entrance, Your heat on my brow, the fire ensues my bones through and through, You resound in my heart... no more will darkness befall you, despair grip you, depression break you, anxiety take you, addiction make you. It is I that drew you, I that propelled, broke and grew you. The depths that pulled at your heart, the voice screaming now, you were made for such a time as this...... I AM and fear not for you are with Me now.
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